Buddhism and the Uttangard

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Buddhist Statue found in a Viking Grave in Sweden

I remember now why I gave up on Buddhism so quickly and returned to Heathenry: caring about people who wouldn't give a rat's ass about you is too hard. And maybe that means that I don't completely agree with Mahayana Buddhism morally, even if I think it is ultimately correct, if that makes sense.

You should be a good host, welcome the stranger in. But strangers will treat you as an enemy when they feel threatened by both real and imagined threats, and you must never forget to keep the metaphorical sword above your hearth. And sometimes the face you thought was a friend, when you get down to it, must remain an outsider. You must keep them at a distance, for they lack the honor, commitment, and emotional availability to be a good community member, or even a friend.

I also metaphysically agree with Heathenry, even if I am an atheist and don't believe in the gods: there is chaos in the Utangard, and that chaos is dangerous to keeping inner peace. But I think this concept could be integrated, at least on one level, with Buddhism.

I don't, however, agree with Heathenry's utilitarian view of people, and I don't agree with its focus on fame and being remembered for my deeds. It does a serious number on me, psychologically, whereas in this department Buddhism is far better for my mental health. People can try to wiggle their way out of this part of Norse Paganism, but its intense focus on ancestors and how the gods and heroes are focused on in Heathenry is unavoidable.

Buddhism has too much to offer to getting myself to a place of peace and happiness, too much for me to give up on it. Just because it is hard, that doesn't mean it isn't right, and that is isn't good for me.

I also very much dislike Heathenry's take on where a person's worth comes from. It is a utilitarian religion. It places too much emphasis on being remembered and honored for one's great deeds. It makes me feel like shit about myself. I need a religion that values people regardless, and tells me that I can be happy and complete whether or not I am remembered or am successful or do great deeds of honor or valor. That is what I love about Buddhism.